MEDITATION
: Psalm 139:1-16
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O
LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
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You
know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
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You
discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my
ways.
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Before
a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD .
v.1
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O
LORD, you have searched me and you know me
do I feel comfortable
or uneasy about this thought?
Jesus, the image
of God, looked at people and knew what they were thinking, what
they were feeling
God said to
Samuel, “Man looks on the outward appearance but the Lord looks
at the heart” 1 Sam 16:7
Star trek -
“We're being scanned”
when He looks
at me, nothing is hidden from His gaze
it is foolish
therefore, for me to try to hide anything from God
it is foolish
for me to try to pretend with Him - He knows me!
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v.2a
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You
know when I sit and when I rise
He watches and
knows my actions
CCTV cameras
watch in the high street
spy satellite
sky cameras watch every movement
in Orwell's
“1984” Bib Brother saw everything
a frightening
thought?
only when we're
guilty
only in the
hands of unscrupulous men who change the truth
Andrew - in
ten years we'll all have implanted chips that show the central
computer where we are
fearful knowledge
in wrong hands
God knows because
He sees my every action
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v.2b
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you
perceive my thoughts from afar.
not only actions
but the thoughts behind them
He knows when
I'm putting up a front
He knows when
I'm deceiving other people
the smile that
hides doubts, fears and schemes
He doesn't have
to come close to know my thoughts
He's not like
a friend who I see in the distance approaching and before whom
I must put on a front, before whom I must adjust my appearance
No, He's put
His own Holy Spirit within me and although He, the Lord, is seated
in heaven, He's also here by the presence of His Spirit
It doesn't matter
if He sometimes seems afar off, He still knows, He still sees
and He understands
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v.3a
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You
discern my going out and my lying down
AV compasseth
- surround my activities, sees every detail
NAS scrutinise
- observes in detail
Amp. you
sift and search out my path
not so much
going ahead but diligently checking out where I go
discern = penetrating
insight that sees through the tangle to see the truth, i.e. you
see through the jungle of human activity and pick out where I
am, where I'm going, what I'm doing
you watch and
see my activities
you see when
I go out, and you know why I go, you see when I go out to escape,
you watch and see every activity when I'm away from home
others may not
see, but you're always watching
you see when
I lie down and understand why I do so
you know my
causes of tiredness, my over-activity, my stress, my weariness
of soul, you understand my shear laziness
you understand
all these things
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v.3b
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you
are familiar with all my ways .
your watching
is constant, so everything I do is familiar to you, you know about
it all, it is no surprise to you
my ways, my
habits, my quirks, my fancies, how I think, how I live, the way
I live life, the way I relate to people, the way I handle the
circumstances, you know all about them all, they are well known
to you for you watch them day and night and know every minute
detail of them
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v.4
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Before
a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD .
even before
I speak you know what is coming
because you
know the way I work, the way I operate, my thoughts, my ideas,
motivations, aspirations, you know what I'm going to say even
before I've actually said it.
you know what
is coming, you're not surprised by it
sometimes you
anticipate my words with sadness, that I should be so foolish
to let such words pass my lips, that I should allow such callousness
of heart to be expressed.
sometimes you
anticipate my words with joy and you see goodness of heart about
to be expressed, love and generosity of spirit towards others.
Heb
4:13 Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything
is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must
give account.
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PRAYER
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You
hem me in - behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
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Such
knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain
v.5a
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You
hem me in--behind and before
I like to think
that I'm free, but in your love for me you fence me in
you're God and
you can stop me going places
you know what
would harm me and you stop me in my tracks
your fencing is
corrective, I cannot run back and pretend it didn't happen - you
don't let me do that
your fencing is
protective, I cannot run forward beyond what you allow, and you
only allow as much as I can cope with
when the apostle
Paul was on his second journey with you, you stopped him by your
Spirit going north into the province of Asia, you hemmed him in
until you took him to the coast and then gave him a vision of crossing
into Europe and opened the path that way
sometimes when
I go to move forward into something that is not going to be good
for me you give me a sense of disquiet, you hem me in and stop me.
sometimes you
intervene in circumstances and place a fence that stops me moving
ahead
I'm sorry that
I get upset when you do that, it's just that I don't realise it's
you doing it and you're doing it for my good
sometimes you
allow Satan or other people to be the fence that stops me moving
ahead, and that I find particularly hard
even the apostle
Paul was stopped by Satan on occasion (1 Thess 2:18), so I shouldn't
be surprised
I acknowledge
you are the Lord, and sometimes you hedge me in, behind and before.
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v.5b
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you
have laid your hand upon me
you've reached
out to me in your love
it's like you
see me stumbling forward and you put out your hand to me, of restraint,
of protection, of support, upon me
sometimes I'm
very much aware of your hand upon me and I rejoice in your presence
other times your
touch is so light and I am so insensitive that I am not aware that
your hand is there
yet the truth
is, you HAVE laid your hand on my, I belong to you, I am yours.
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v.6a
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Such
knowledge is too wonderful for me
this is really
all too much for me to take in
these truths are
so wonderful that I can hardly accept them
I've been so limited
in my thinking of you, that this seems so incredible, and shows
me how amazingly great you are, and I can hardly cope with the greatness
of it.
I struggle when
you tell me you are with me and you love me
unbelief rises
up and I think, “Surely it can't be”
forgive me for
my foolishness Lord, my mind is so limited, my heart is so restricted,
I am so slow to understand
yet these truths
are true, even though they seem too wonderful for me
thank you, Lord.
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v.6b
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too
lofty for me to attain
most of the time
my thoughts are taken up with mundane hum drum day to day things
which are so ordinary, but this somehow seems in a different world
it's like these
truths are up out of my reach usually, I can't grasp such things
it's like they're
high up, out of my grasp, and yet something in me yearns to know
more
my mind seems
to be only able to reach up to grasp a certain amount - and I'm
aware that there is so much more - yet on my own I can't seem to
reach up to it.
these things are
too much for my natural, self-centred mind to cope with
I recognise that
these are things that come only by revelation and I need the help
of your Holy Spirit to really take them in.
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PRAYER
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Where
can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
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If
I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths,
you are there.
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If
I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the
sea,
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even
there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast
v.7
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Where
can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
I realise that
wherever I am, not only do you see me, but you are also there with
me
Where could I
possibly go that you weren't there, you who fill all of creation
You said through
Jeremiah, “ Can anyone hide in secret places so that I cannot
see him?" declares the LORD. "Do not I fill heaven and
earth?" declares the LORD. (Jer 23:24)
There is no hiding
place, nowhere I could run to, to escape you
I can hide from
people, that is easy, but from you it is not possible
I can evade people,
shut myself away, run away to unknown places where they cannot find
me, but not so with you.
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v.8a
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If
I go up to the heavens, you are there
heaven is obviously
your home so if I went there, you would be there already
but it says heavens
- to the extent of the universe - if I were to keep on going at
double the speed of light, for all the years of my life, I would
never escape you, you would still be there with me
so, if one day
space travel should allow me to visit the moon, it will not be a
lonely place, for you will be there
should I ever
travel on a Starship Enterprise travelling to other galaxies, you
would always be there, I could still speak to you and you to me
whether I go to
the extremities of the physical world or the spiritual world, you
will be there.
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v.8b
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if
I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
if I go to the
opposite extreme, to the very depths of Sheol or Hell, you would
be there
even if I turned
my back on you and committed myself to Hell I would still have to
face you, even in the awfulness of that place
if I go to the
depths of the spiritual world, you will be there as much as you
are in heaven, your presence fills all of existence
if I go to the
depths of the material world, there I will still find you
if I took a submarine
to the bottom of the ocean, to those terrible pressure crushing
zones of the earth, of utter darkness in the deepest of the deeps
of the ocean, you would be there
there is no escape,
I cannot get away from you
there is no escape,
you will always be there to comfort me, to love me
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v.9
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If
I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of
the sea
if, as the sun
rises in the morning, I fly with it and follow it round to the far
side of the world, you'll still be there
it doesn't matter
where it is, you'll be there
if I followed
Jonah's example and sought to flee to another country, wherever
I go you will be there
if I go to South
America you will be there, to Asia and you will be there, to Australia
you will be there, to the Antarctic you will be there, to the hottest
parts of the earth you will be there, to the coldest regions you
will be there
you are familiar
with every land and every place, for you are there.
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v.10a
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even
there your hand will guide me
it doesn't matter
where it is, you'll be there for me
I'll never be
lost, for you know the way and you'll guide me
I may not know
the place or the way, but you do, and you're there for me, in every
circumstance, every place.
when I am out
of my depth in the circumstances, you'll be there to lead me through
when I don't know
what to do, you'll be there to guide me through.
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v.10b
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your
right hand will hold me fast
it doesn't matter
where I am, you right hand, your hand of authority, that nothing
can withstand, will hold me secure
nothing will move
me, nothing will shake me, with your hand around me, I am utterly
secure.
you are the Lord,
all powerful, all knowing, and with your right hand upon me, I will
not be moved, I will not be brought down by the enemy, with your
grace and power and authority, I will prevail.
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If
I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night
around me,"
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even
the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the
day, for darkness is as light to you
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If
I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become
night around me,"
even if I were
foolish enough to imagine the darkest of places, if I thought to
escape into that darkness, even then that would not be enough
if in my folly
my imagination dreamt of darkness in which no human eye could see,
that would not be enough.
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v.12
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even
the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like
the day, for darkness is as light to you
even in such a
situation, if it ever should exist, the Lord will see me, it will
be as daylight to Him, for He is not limited by light or dark, He
sees all things!
Lord your eyes
penetrate the thickest of brick walls, the densest of concrete,
and so as for darkness, that is as light to you, and you see me.
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For
you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
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I
praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are
wonderful, I know that full well.
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My
frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When
I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
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your
eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written
in your book before one of them came to be
v.13
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For
you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's
womb .
I am not an accident,
you had a hand in my making
I am not just
flesh, I am spirit as well
from my conception
you were involved with me
I never realised
it until I came to know you, but I thank you that you knew me even
then
you said to Jeremiah,
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born
I set you apart” (Jer 1:5)
I find it amazing
that you had plans for me even before I was born.
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v.14a
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I
praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made
as science and
the media open up the wonders of the human body, so I understand
more the truth of these words
the incredible
detail of my body and how it works is truly amazing
I marvel that
when I cut myself you've made it that it seals itself up and the
bleeding stops
I marvel at the
wonder of taste and digestion, the means you've given up to be fed
and to be strengthened
Lord, I could
go on all day as I ponder on the wonder of this thing you call my
body, it is amazing, thank you.
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v.14b
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your
works are wonderful, I know that full well.
I realise that
I'm just one tiny part of all of your Creation, and indeed the more
and more I see of your world, the more and more I wonder at the
incredible detail of what you have made
when I look at
the largest of the beasts or the smallest of insects, as TV programmes
show us the lives of these creatures, I wonder at the variety and
diversity and intricacy of your works
the more and more
I wonder at your Creation, the more I realise how wonderful you
are to have designed and made all these things, and for no other
reason than for your pleasure.
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v.15,
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When
I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my
unformed body
when I was being
formed in my mother's womb, you watched, you saw, and you knew me
even though I
was not a communicating being able to relate to you, you still watched
over me, still took interest in me, for you knew me and had plans
for me.
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v.16b
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All
the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of
them came to be
before I came
into being, you knew who I would be, you had plans for me, and you
loved me! |
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